Looking to love

I’m declaring it a year of love.

There are so many things that this already means to me, and I am sure it will continue to develop as I do.

Above all, I want to love the journey. In reflecting on last year, I drew a map of significant moments, lessons, places, people, questions, and learning. It was a zigzagging chart with great highs and deep lows. In 2014, I discovered much about who I am and realized many things that I need. The former left me feeling empowered, rooting into gifts and callings and standing in Deep Self. The latter, though, is where I stumbled the most. When faced with need, I feel weak and fear regression. Rather than remembering the process I am in, honoring my humanness in the inter-dependency that that requires, I plunge into thinking or periods of self-deprecation. So, an intention to love the journey means not only enjoying the moments of clarity and sensed empowerment, but the difficult parts too. Perhaps, one day, being empowered in my need and ability to receive with open palms.

Intention setting mind map
Mind map of my intention for 2015, 1.2.15

The decision to set love as my intention is largely rooted in my need to be more kind to myself and to pursue my own desires rather than some internalized picture of what I should yearn for. It is also about a sensed need to be gentler with everyone in their process, right where they are.

With love as my aim, I want to better listen, be present, and find and be in community.

To do this, one love I am setting an intention to be more mindful of is body. I mean this for others’ bodies, and my own. From regular movement to being more gentle with my face, I want to love my body by taking care of it. In terms of others, with thin-privilege unchecked and a sensitivity to the perils of disordered eating, body dysmorphic disorder, and eating disorders, I’m afraid I did more body-talk policing than loving last year. This will change in 2015, though my first step is to learn more about how to navigate the difficult web of the intersectional oppressions of sizeism and fatphobia, sexism and body-shaming, and ableism and an epidemic of eating disorders. As I learn and likely make mistakes, I’ll need to return to my love of process.

Alongside all of this, I want to remember and attend to the things that I love: writing, yoga, and friends. These are the things that best support me in doing the rest as I seek to make my intention a lived one.

Well, my loves. These are my intentions for the year. Love is my word. What is yours?


5 thoughts on “Looking to love

  1. 1 John 4:7-21 Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God. Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love. This is how God showed his love among us: He sent his one and only Son into the world that we might live through him. This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins. Dear friends, since God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. No one has ever seen God; but if we love one another, God lives in us and his love is made complete in us. This is how we know that we live in him and he in us: He has given us of his Spirit. And we have seen and testify that the Father has sent his Son to be the Savior of the world. If anyone acknowledges that Jesus is the Son of God, God lives in them and they in God. And so we know and rely on the love God has for us.God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in them. This is how love is made complete among us so that we will have confidence on the day of judgment: In this world we are like Jesus. There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. We love because he first loved us. Whoever claims to love God yet hates a brother or sister is a liar. For whoever does not love their brother and sister, whom they have seen, cannot love God, whom they have not seen. And he has given us this command: Anyone who loves God must also love their brother and sister.
    God loves you so much! What a wonderful aim; to love because He first loved us!


    1. Brenda,

      So lovely to hear from you. I certainly believe that God and Love are synonyms. Thank you for this reminder that an intention to love is an intention to be in union with the divine, connecting to the Source and letting that light dwell in us and flow through us.

      So much love to you…


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